Yeah man that has to be a hard time.....even among plenty of other hard stuff going on.
The first real band I was in ,which was actually my second, was sad to leave because there was just so much potential there. But the two founding members just seemed to do everything they could to shoot us in the foot. Blame the internet; run your mouth there and that shit talk travels really fast.
Anyway, the drummer's wife was schooling for a veterinarian career, and once she graduated she had job offers from all over the US and they soon moved to the West Coast. The bassist didn't want to hang around while we try to find another drummer...and I didn't want to hang around while we try to find another drummer and a bassist. We had one gig left to play that year and we all honored it; blew the freakin roof off the place, DGAF, got paid (wait, what?) and then parted our ways in the parking lot after the show.
The bassist and myself then joined his previous band, a different musical direction that was a bit challenging for me at the time because it was less of the Slayer/Nuclear Assault/Megadeth style that I was comfortable with and more of the heavier, darker sides of Rush/Pink Floyd/AC-DC that I wasn't used to. It turned out pretty cool though. I had to leave though after 2 years there because after all that practice, we played only 2 shows in all that time...and they were at the same place.
Besides that, the family health issues had reared it's ugly head, so it was an easy and painless decision for me to bow out of that band.
Now I have my own band, writing and composing everything we're doing so far (except one original song the bassist brought in and one cover), and trying to make good of all my past learning experiences.
Maybe Dante......maybe you might find some of your own artistic creations along the way on this new path and you might surprise yourself.
If that door opens, there's 3 things you can do. Shut it and walk away, stand in the doorway and wonder, or take a step inside to explore. Whichever of the 3 you choose, make sure you can be at peace with your decision....that door may never appear again. Best of luck with everything, Brother.